up and down

Allllll right. Phwah. How's life? Uh... Brain overload. So many things going on... School is about to start. Thats one of them. I've got my backpack, school stuff... ARG. Starting a new school is always so frightening. mostly I'm worried about where to go. This school is REALLY big. And the schedule changes every day. I'm sure I'll be able to find every thing though. :P

And the circus is this weekend. Who's going? Yes mom, I know you're going. BESIDES my mom. I think it's the Greatest Show on Earth. Pretty awesome.

This isn't the question, but I was just wondering if anyone has any trouble with... people understanding you? Being able to express yourself? Because I can't do it. I'll lock up. I don't want other people to worry, or I might hurt someone... Or some one is being a jerk. You might want to do this. NO I'm right no matter what. I just want to walk up and stuff my fist in their face. But I can't. Because I know THAT is wrong. I just can't seem to make them see with my words. And I know force doesn't work any way. It's so frustrating. -_- Screaming in their face isn't the way. I wish I could do that sometimes.

Also, I'm wondering if I have trouble controlling my feelings. I pour my guts into my journal. That doesn't do it though. And then I'm back to that needing to talk to someone. BUT I CAN'T DO THAT. As stated above. My chest feels locked up sometimes. Like my breath gets caught in it. Sometimes I feel so full of rage, or anger, and I want to roar at the top of my lungs, or so sad I could sob all night. I used to not think about what I was feeling. I would just be happy. But then what happens when you do think about all of it? BOOM. Emotional overload. And I've tried to just get over it. It comes back though.

So I was just wondering if anyone else that reads this understands or has felt like this before.

As for the question, has you thought about how life seems to go up and down? Like things will be going good, and all of a sudden, BAM. Some kind of crap just ruins that feeling of happiness. It could be tiny or something big like someone dieing, but then it'll fade away and then you'll feel happy again. It takes as long as it does. Long, short, for the happy and bad feelings. Or does life go in a whole bunch of directions? Left, right, forward, back, up, down. Something to think about.

owwwww my head

First off, I'm sorry. I HAVE BEEN... uh... BUSY!... I guess... Nah, I've just neglected my computer for a while. Alllll right. Stuff to TALK about.

Have you ever been in an ALL CAPS RAGE (respects payed to RayWilliamJohnson) before? Have you just LET IT ALL OUT? Roar? I usually just sigh really loud. Take a deep breath and then let it all out. Like a sigh roar. I have a head ache. It really hurts. ARG!!! >_< OMG text color change!!!

Uhhh.....

Question...

Mmmmmm fudge...

This is going to be the worst question evar. What's your favorite kind of fudge? :D

Atoms

Today was a lazy day. Alot of it was spent on the computer or in the pool. Terraria too. Uhhm... Six flags was totally amazing. They have the best rollercoasters EVAR!!! We got these refill cups that we used alot. Very refreshing. Free refills day of purchase. But you couldn't bring them on the rides. Which was stupid.

What the question is has to do with the title. Could there be something smaller than atoms? There are pieces of atoms, but could they be like planets? Or maybe contain entire galaxies or universes... universei... uh... you get the idea.

A bit short, but I couldn't think of any thing else to write.

4th of July

All right. It's the 4th. Who's seeing fireworks? Uhh... I'm just kind of writing things off the top of my head... I've moved officially to my dad's house... The internet will be set up on my computer soon (I'm posting from my bro's computer) so I'll be able to watch all the YouTube video subscriptions I've missed out on and post on this and facebook more... And in general go on the internet... duh...

Okay, calm down, I'll get on with the question.
Let me figure out what it is first... Uhh...
This computer is nice...
If you knew how long this is taking me, ugh... Like, 5 minutes...

Alright. What do you think of when you look at the stars? Recently I looked up and thought, wow, look at all that. Our emotions and the way our heads are... they kinda sorta maybe add up to all that space. Thoughts, our subconcious (did I spell that right? no automatic spell check on here...), brains in general are constantly working, and if you added that all up how much space would that take up? I mean, if thoughts were matter. And all the people here on earth, and possibly on other planets... Thats alot.

So there you are. Something to ponder on your spare time.

LAST THING. Take your time. Don't stress. It'll all be okay. Just think. You have all the time in the world. Callllllmmmmmm. If you wonder why I'm so slow... There you go. And also because I'm tired... And other witty things you have to say about my turtle like speed. My mind isn't empty. I'm constantly thinking, although those thoughts are constantly forgotten.

HAVE A NICE DAY. OR NIGHT. OR WHATEVER.
That seemed unhappy and negative.
ENJOY... uh... EVERYTHING. Yeah.

Okay, good bye.

Yeah new month!

All right. A new month. High fives all around. I stayed up with some friend's on xbox... I'm am going to be soooooo tired when I wake up... My mom and I are going to see the new xmen, and I'll be going over to my dads house after that. Still not completely sure when the final move is... Umm... >_< blahhhhhh... I'm begging to feel kind of cheated. I won't elaborate on that. Feelings and stuff. This is public. ARG the negativity that goes on in my head... I wish I could just flush it out or something... I love music. Most kinds. Rap and hip hop stuff irritates me... Along with country. But I like metal and most other things. Mostly death metal and symphony type things. Especially together. It seems reall epic and awesome. Umm... How about... What is your favorite anything. The thing you love the most out of any thing else?

By the way, I'm going to try and start checking blogs and updating more frequently.